Everything is illuminated

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.

i am reading this book that bryan gave to me called the pen and the stethoscope and suddenly i am at peace with all of the future. this is what i was meant to do, i know it and with God’s grace it will happen. there is nothing to fear and nothing to be anxious about. i have done my best and it is all i can do. so today, finally, at the end of a tumultuous year, i feel at peace, which one can do nothing but call perfect timing.